While I’m happily married now, it didn’t come easy. In fact, my friends would often get together and analyze everything I was doing wrong in order to “help” me. Yes, it was as awful and painful as it sounds. I didn’t appreciate the fact that everything seemed to come so easily for many of them. They met their husbands young, they had great careers, they were starting families. Yet I was still trying to keep my head above water at my job and go on a “normal” date instead of another crazy online experience. Not exactly the glamorous single life.
So I understand what it is to struggle. To be lonely. To question what you’re doing or why things are so hard. I really tried with all of my dates, or I liked to think I did. But as I was reflecting recently on my history, I came to a realization. I did actually have an “aha” moment (to quote Oprah). There came a time when I said I would do things differently, and I did. Not because some friend gave me advice. But because it felt right to me. It felt like the path I was taking suddenly became clear.
When I had my “aha” moment it wasn’t any single thing, but rather a change in my process. I did new things that felt foreign to me. I acted and reacted differently. I changed my behavior and hoped that my feelings and thoughts might follow. Eventually, they did.
I’m being vague because I think everyone’s journey in life is unique, and nobody can tell any of us how to proceed forward. But in our hearts, we know when that crazy idea we think about just might work. We know what bad patterns we persist in following and how they sabotage us. Or maybe we see something we didn’t before. We know when we’ve tapped into something real that we should follow, and it’s scary.
So, that’s all I’m saying – we’re all different, and we should stop comparing ourselves to friends or wondering what we’re doing wrong or looking at our timetables and wondering WTF??. We need to start listening to our own voices and keep walking steadily forward down our own unique paths.